Vibrations

I recall moments where 
Fate pending
I conclude this experience early.
Brief scenes:
Hands on the wheel, early morning
River to the left
Knife in hand, legs and chest already scared
Under water, still
Medication inches from gallons of alcohol.
Pause =
What then do I make of the shakes?
Volatile spasms of mind? 
Bombarding mostly in the time of swampy weakness?
I think of the time extended by willing fate. I think of other selfs less fortunate.
Play ->
Spasm
Tremble
Spasm
Tremble.